Lately I'm trying to resolve the issue of the implicit commitment towards painting daily for the blog, by simply avoiding the topic. I default to doing an artwork a day so that I don't have to solve it now. I dread deciding that I never committed, therefore I need to break the streak. It's a lame way of tackling life issues, yet it's my vice, and it is the opposite of what the majority of people do: Usually people give up commitments. For me it's about rushing through them with a bit too much fervor most of the time both unasked and detrimental. At the root of it it's all about the fear of not being enough. The very thought of giving up in something means I've failed. I've simply extended this to things I never picked up.
In any case I started working on the piece are 3am - I was hoping to watch some Rick'n'Morty and read a bit of Asimov's the Foundation before bed but it will have to wait for another day. Other than the ugly backstory of this piece that I mentioned above, I'm quite satisfied with it. I still keep working on the horrible paper of that promotional notebook I got for free instead of the premium paper of the moleskine, but what can I say; it takes the pressure of my back of making something other than doodles, and by the time I feel there is something in front of me, it's already impossible to move to the other notebook.
I forgive myself though. Again, I feel impressed by how much I can layer colors when using watercolor. While it doesn't really show in the photograph (I take them with my mid-range Samsung A5 (2017) with the flash-light and color correct the colors to reach a slightly more natural color) I loved the richness of hues in the background - red and on top orange causing the orange shining through the red. I don't even understand how this works, but it does!
This was another unplanned piece of course (I haven't thought of planning anything yet) and started by the dragonlike head-ornament. I drew something like a dragon and decided to adorn a head with it. I tried to make it look like gold; I'm happy with it (comparatively of course). As for whether it looks like a head-ornament or something growing out of her head, well...
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