day #365 - the end of an era

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I thought I was on top of it; I had finished early and was looking for a movie to watch already 3 hours ago. And I don't know how time went by. A phonecall, some networking studying, some online shopping and here we are, already past the time for an early movie. Regardless, today is a special day. The blog is over! I finished 365 days of daily painting and recording it, whatever that means. A big part of the process I will have to keep doing mainly for myself. Perhaps taking daily photos of my work and saving it on some folder. This has provem useful many times when I trying to date a piece I've been working on. Also making a small diary of today's achievements. It's still useful. But this will be done for my eyes only. I also don't know if I will be continuing my obsessively daily painting. How would life be if I had days off? Now for example that I'm moving out and I have to daily chores that until now were completely taken care of, perhaps I'll allow my

day #343 - Burnt out

And here we are today, feeling down. Today I resumed painting on the latest piece but did only minimal changes. I neither had the mood, not the confidence to work freely on it. I work less than an hour which is rare but it felt like an eternity. I'm starting to realize that the "first session" is always a breeze. The subsequent ones, due to the lack of confidence are always slow and tiresome. It's not because I'm not in the mood to work on the piece, but because I lost the confidence to "challenge" it and instead I'm focusing on minor fine-tunings: How would it be if I wasn't afraid to mess the piece up, just like the first days that I would rework large portions of the painting without worrying? Interesting thought. I'm glad at least that I've disovered it. I also fixated the other piece, did some sculpting and now I'm going to sign the fixated piece. Or maybe not. I'll do it tomorrow. Better rest. After all today I skipped instagram. Something is not working for me; there is too much pressure to put a performance every single day, put up a new exciting piece every day and I need to reconsider my stance, this has to stop.
This is a later screenshot of what I hope was that day's VR sketches

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