day #365 - the end of an era

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I thought I was on top of it; I had finished early and was looking for a movie to watch already 3 hours ago. And I don't know how time went by. A phonecall, some networking studying, some online shopping and here we are, already past the time for an early movie. Regardless, today is a special day. The blog is over! I finished 365 days of daily painting and recording it, whatever that means. A big part of the process I will have to keep doing mainly for myself. Perhaps taking daily photos of my work and saving it on some folder. This has provem useful many times when I trying to date a piece I've been working on. Also making a small diary of today's achievements. It's still useful. But this will be done for my eyes only. I also don't know if I will be continuing my obsessively daily painting. How would life be if I had days off? Now for example that I'm moving out and I have to daily chores that until now were completely taken care of, perhaps I'll allow my

day #116 - Broken

So here it is, after 45 days of a streak in poses studies, I decided I can't go on. I mean I could had, I could had done 5 minutes of posture practice today just to retain the streak but I can't. I broke the skull/headplanes studies, I broke the hand and gestures studies. I just did some doodling on good old paper.

This day was building up into an eruption day. I happened to have two back to back conversations about my dissatisfaction about my life and drawing/painting in it, I've felt so tired lately, so uninspired and tired... I decided if any day, today is the day to put creativity above practice. It's not a good day by all means. I feel hopeless and my drawing is not turning around the mood. But it is what it is. I can only dream of watching some tv, and then heading to bed.

So what are the good news of the day? I broke the streak! I broke the 45 days streak. The world has not collapsed; all that will happen is that tomorrow I might count only up to 30mins of practice, instead of 60mins. I might even stop studying the skull, perhaps I had enough for now, I don't know. I might opt for rest. One day I might break the 116 days of drawing & blogging streak. Not today. 

Today I'm also "happy" (what a stupid word; how can one be happy if one is sad?) for using the new posca golden marker that I bought. It's very impressive (my inner critic just remarked "if only your ink drawings were good enough to make good use of the golden color").

Then, I like the small figurines, the tree, the spaceships, the dashed lineart and the awesome pentel pocketbrush. I liked the strange mosque with its garden, the cypress trees. I finally like the strange scene with the victorian lady, the square-jawed gentleman and the clocktower. I like the straight lines in his jacket, the incomplete details.

ah, it just hurts today...

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