day #365 - the end of an era

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I thought I was on top of it; I had finished early and was looking for a movie to watch already 3 hours ago. And I don't know how time went by. A phonecall, some networking studying, some online shopping and here we are, already past the time for an early movie. Regardless, today is a special day. The blog is over! I finished 365 days of daily painting and recording it, whatever that means. A big part of the process I will have to keep doing mainly for myself. Perhaps taking daily photos of my work and saving it on some folder. This has provem useful many times when I trying to date a piece I've been working on. Also making a small diary of today's achievements. It's still useful. But this will be done for my eyes only. I also don't know if I will be continuing my obsessively daily painting. How would life be if I had days off? Now for example that I'm moving out and I have to daily chores that until now were completely taken care of, perhaps I'll allow my

day #248 - Quest

I don't know why this word came up. Anyway, I feel tense. I'm trying to "wrap up" so that I can watch some movie tonight and it's already 1am. I guess it shouldn't be like that, but it is. Today's piece is both good, and bad. On one hand I explored a bit more this impressionist/chinese landscape direction, I got to use my gouaches again (sign that I'm giving painting a bit more room - my sketchbook is the most "fast food" one, iPad the next and watercolor pans third in this list since they remand only minimal preparations) and I got to mix some suptle almost-whites, but on the other hand I feel that it's somehow a very mindless endeavour and I'm starting to worry whether I'm abusing it - Whether I'm falling back to it just as a safe choice.
Okay I feel both stressed, and not very happy, the complete opposite mood I wish to build for myself. Let's wrap up, and recap what has been good. For a start, I've just realized how stress this whole thing is making me feel, and how this shouldn't be like that. My painting should be competing with my entertainment. I need to reorganize my day and perhaps accept that I need to be doing less "painting", or less "blogging". Or less of both. Second (positive) thing to keep in mind is that I like a lot juxtaposing short brush-strokes with different colors and these strokes have significance for me. It definitely has to do with my brain-wiring doing chinese ideograms; there's something to it.

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